Pop Culture Magick - How a Guns ‘n Roses Concert was a giant magical initiation ceremony for me.

How do I start a post like this? It’s beyond what my mind can capture and absolutely more than what words can say. 

Where do I even begin? When I bought the ticket? While I was anticipating the concert? While I was sending Reiki to the situation (the concert)? When I started the getting ready ritual? The MAX ride to the MODA Center? Finding my seat? Watching all the people there for the same show?

Let me start with the astrology and numbers of the night. A full moon in Aquarius on 8/22/21 (which is the 234th day of the year). In an Aquarius town (Portland), in an Aquarius state (Oregon), going to see a band with the most Aquarian Axl (Stellium of 6 planets in Aquarius). And myself, I have a moon (at 22 degrees), venus and Lilith in Aquarius. And I had both a grandmother (born on 2/14) and a grandfather that were Aquarians (my ancestorals). Lots of Aqua energy flowing that night.

I think this perfectly sums up Aqua energy:

“It is a strange desire to seek power and to lose liberty.”

— Francis Bacon (Sun and Mercury in Aquarius)

 

At any rate, from all that I can tell, something was definitely up with the cosmos.

The concert itself was sublime, transcendental, a spiritual experience, beyond my wildest imagination and everything I could have hoped for and more. GNR did not disappoint. They put on a DYNAMITE show! They guys are older than me and they were all over the stage just pouring out the LOVE to the crowd!

Axl was on time, charming and did ALL THE MOVES! This old lady was swooning!

First I watched Mammoth WVH! I was enthralled by WVH’s sound! Totally unexpected and absolutely stunning! He has skillz! I think I was expecting him to sound harder, but I was pleasantly surprised and am digging his vibe! I have had the privilege of watching both father and son! What an honor! 

Then just when I thought I couldn’t wait one more second, the MAIN EVENT began! W AXL ROSE and the band were heard before seen and his signature voice pierced through my body as they began “It’s so easy” which was a confirmation for my next venture. Exactly what I needed to know!

The first song, “It’s So Easy”. There were so many syncs there. 

The band energetically swept through multiple, upbeat, older songs then played their new song ABSURD. Axl came out afterwards and said “You’ll have to excuse me, I’m all amped up on Voodoo Donuts!” and we went wild!

They sang “You Could Be Mine” (which I totally wanted and had been playing all week long) and “Better” from Chinese Democracy (totally unexpected and I went NUTS), so happy for these two songs, I wished to hear these LIVE! Not to mention “Live and Let Die”! (a childhood favorite and hearing AXL sing this was so profound).

Axl saying “Just another day at the office.” What a sense of humor! And, indeed! He is so professional now, just delivering a show so smoothly. And him saying “You’re so generous” when we screamed our applause!

Many encores. The first one. Everything was dark and all I hear is Axl yelling “SIT DOWN” and then he is at the front of the stage at the PIANO and begins "November Rain!".

At the second encore he comes out to an acoustic “Wichita Lineman” which BLEW MY MIND and proved that he still has a golden voice! This had personal meaning for me. And this is when I KNEW I was in a Magical Initiation of some sort. ON what level I wasn’t sure. (It took days to put this all together).

Slash was amazing throughout the night, laying it down! He is a maestro on the guitar! OUT OF THIS WORLD!

Duff just gets better with age! And yet another Aquarius!

They played "Patience" and "Paradise City" to end the night.

I walked partly home from the abundance of energy running through me and it was well after 3am before I could sleep.

This was also an initiation into a women's group I am entering to heal my relationship with money and what I believe to be a level of higher magic. It is all in synch and very profound and the signs and symbols are blowing my mind!

Word of the Year (2021)

Well, last year (2020), I did not choose a word for the year. I can see the results of not having a focus. It led to chaos. During the last year, I do not feel like I advanced in my personal growth. I feel like I just waded through the year with no purpose. There was a vibration of survival that defined the year, not just for myself but for the collective, given the pandemic, social unrest, fires, an intense presidential election and other events of the year. All these things affected me personally, on a mirco level. I’ve come out at the end of the year fairly well, considering. Better off than alot, that’s for sure. Still I have some serious issues to address now that a new year, new energy has emerged. So I am dedicating 2021 to myself.

I’ve decided that Thinner is going to be my word. I am inspired by the novel by Stephen King. This word can apply to several areas of my life that I would like to decrease. Starting with my weight. I have some health issues that I want to overcome and reducing my weight will greatly help those issues and they may even go away. I also want to thin my belongings, so a purge of stuff is in my future. Spring cleaning? I want to thin my spending. (And perhaps try selling some of my items). So, that’s where I stand right now. Thinner.

Bring it on!

Happy 2021!

Change in Perspective

I'm coming up on my third year back to mainstream work and 18 months back to 40 hours a week.  Today I was noticing my reaction to my new utility bill....

I used to get my bills and get stressed out about them.  I'd feel resentful about paying the bills.  I'd feel anxiety about paying the bill.  I'd often seek distractions to keep from thinking about my bills and I'd also spend tons of time obsessing over my payback schedule.  In short, I was fearful and resentful of my bills. 

Today I got my new electric bill.  It's at its highest at this time of year when I'm trying to heat a drafty apartment.  And I run cold.  So it's high.  In the past I would have definitely stressed about the amount while being angry about having to pay it.  But today, I felt gratitude that I have the money to pay it.  I'm grateful I have a roof over my head and I'm grateful I am warm inside. 

I realize I am living a blessed life. Things aren't perfect, but I choose to be grateful for everything I have.

New Year New Schmear

Whatever goals I thought I was going to start my new year with have quickly flown the coop.  Those ways are for the good old days.  I am now taking a more balanced and grounded approach.  Realistic even...

How did I think I could take on so many new changes all at once?  I ended up failing at every one of them before the day ended. 

Why are we, why am I, so hard on myself (ourselves).  It's something I see all around me via friends, social media and culturely, even when I changed my yearly goal to one word I had a secret list of life changes I was applying to myself.  Pure folly.

So in this moment I give up my notions of perfection and ease into comfort&joy and work towards that goal and away from tasks that are not in alignment with that ultimate goal.

Feel good. 😍