So, the energy, with the heat of the sun, is rising. Not to be left behind is my ego, jutting out like a strutting peacock, screaming for attention like a 2 year old child. My pride doesn't often bare itself so blatantly, but when it does it puts on a show like Liberace, Elton John and Lady Gaga combined. Only Ghettofied. I did the deed. Lucky for me, Instant Karma appeared and just I showed my posterior it was also generously handed right back to me in the form of public humiliation. In the heat of the moment I have no problem acting a fool, but regret does creep in like a ninja and the scene of my folly replays itself over and over in my mind like a blooper reel.
I had an astrological reading done one time and I have one aspect in my chart that carries with it the characteristics of a "disobedient spirit"..."habitual and chronic irritability and rebelliousness". Oh my...sigh.... This plagues me. I also am very tender hearted and sensitive. This creates within me cognitive dissonance. It is like I am at war within myself. I have a volatile and vile temper and yet I am extremely compassionate, sensitive and empathetic. What the hayhobalina?
Thank the gods for Instant Karma! I warn those close to me to "not poke the bear" in me. I can be the most generous and loving person you ever met and the most ferocious. It has been a life long journey for me to integrate my personality and to accept myself the way that I am and to feed the loving side of me and to acknowledge my ferocity but not let it overtake me. Still learning. Always learning. That is the joy of this life.
