Cold Springs / Camp Sherman

Cold Springs / Camp Sherman
Winter Soltice 2013

Sunday, December 30, 2018

End of year (2018)

So soon another year has come to an end. 

I moved at the beginning of the year and reunited with my ex, settled into my full-time job and enjoyed a year of relative ease (per my yearly intention). 

I suffered a chronic ear infection and two frozen shoulders (first the right - which quickly resolved and then the left which still has a limited range of motion).  Other than that, my health has improved greatly.  I think it's due to giving up meat and most dairy.  In 2019, I vow to give up all dairy as well, going totally Vegan.  I have had such a vast improvement in my health that I find it easy to follow.  Not only that, I have lost all my taste for meat, cheese and milk products.  There are sometimes a challenge in finding foods but I welcome the upcoming challenges in the new year as I explore new foods.

My new neighborhood has been interesting.  I live in a park-like setting, close to public transit, however, I feel isolated from my previous social circles downtown.  It has been a learning experience to be sure.  I have explored the neighborhood but there isn't a lot around me in the form of social opportunities.  Without a car to get around, it is limited.  I have public transportation and Uber/Lyft.  I manage but I'm less motivated to get out and about due to logistics.  So I've spent the better part of the year "hermiting".  I have enjoyed the nature walks in my area when the weather is nice.  I enjoy watching my neighbors walk their dogs. 

I've found ease in my work.  I no longer dread going to work.  I no longer dread the daily routine.  I look forward to having structure and consistency in my days.  The familiarity soothes me.  I get to work from home two days a week and that is very nice.  I am comfortable with my work and when challenges arise I feel confident to meet them. 

Sadly as the year ended, another break up happened with my ex.  We just can't make it work, though we have valiantly tried.  It feels rough and raw still as we both go our own ways.  We tried to remain friends yet that was just a convenient crutch for the both of us and we eventually had to break even that tie.  A clean break was needed.  I do not look forward to the loneliness and sadness that stands before me as I heal from this relationship.  But heal I must...

I read "Scar Tissue" by Anthony Kiedis and was transformed.  Not only that, I am now a confirmed Red Hot Chili Peppers fan!  So that happened!  I recommitted to my sobriety and feel a clarity I haven't felt for over two years.  I am ready to see what comes next!

So here's to a new year!

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