My first week back into mainstream type of employment, even
at part-time, was good.
I had a few moments of “blah” and then I bounced back.
The pace of my life sped up considerably. This has brought to my attention just how
important it is for me to nurture myself.
I didn’t drink enough water. I
got hungry a few times. I definitely got
caught up in some energies that I would have otherwise avoided. I had less time to process what was happening
around me and so remaining mindful was more of an effort. Spazzy Colleen made an appearance…or two.
I also noted that I was falling into old habits of being a
“first responder”. My old nature was very
reactionary and I can tell that is something that could be coming up for
me. I’m grateful for the
foreknowledge.
What I came away with is it doesn’t matter what I do. I just do it and do it in love. When the world speeds up, I can breathe and slow
down. Then things settle. I am seeing the important of balance. And the wisdom of moderation. *gasp*
Now in my fourth week, I am finding a routine. That's not always good (for me)-again, remaining mindful is key for my well being. It's too easy for me to fall into a rut. On the other hand, connecting with others has been awesome.
While I am not thrilled to be employed as it is NOT my passion or joy, I am grateful nonetheless. Holding on to any other emotion around this is not conducive to my overall happiness. The people I am working with are incredible examples of grace and compassion and they are excellent examples for me. I am honored to be working with them.
