Trust.
The word I chose to be my focus this year.
The word alone invokes a sense of *ugh* within me. I don’t want to. I don’t want to deal. I don’t care.
I see my propensity for denial and procrastination is still alive and
kicking. *smirk*
Trust means many things – just google it and see the
results. I chose the definition “confidence”
and when I apply that meaning, it transforms the word into something I am more
comfortable exploring.
I went to bed last night, just after the new year passed,
feeling very alone. Not in a sad way,
more in a resigned way. I was also very
hungry and very tired. To me these
feelings are indicators that I need some self-nurturance. I was inclined to turn to victim mentality
and ruminate on why my life was so crappy, but I fought it off (insert Higher
Power) until I could go to sleep confident I was going to be just
fine.
I slept 12 hours.
When I woke up I had fresh coffee, bacon and laughter waiting
for me.
Trust works.
Have a Blessed and Happy New Year!
