According to Numerology, I am entering a personal year -1- which
is the start of a new 9 year cycle. In
this cycle, I am embarking on a new phase of my life, full of novel experiences and change. Check out Creative Numerology http://www.creativenumerology.com/
to find your personal year and what adventures and possibilities await
you.
Fortunately for me, I love change and new experiences. I am excited!
I am also blessed to be returning to familiar territory in
order to provide some ease, comfort and nurturance as I do what I do.
I am re-entering the World of Work as a part-time, temporary
contract employee with my former employer.
I consider this a bridge for myself as I begin to gather up the
resources to lay a foundation for myself.
This gets kind of deep so bear with me…
In my heart of hearts I want to be a wanderer in this
world. Being honest with myself, I also
require a sturdy foundation or some sense of security. This dichotomy has often left me in such turmoil
that I inadvertently self-sabotaged my progress in any direction. That’s not a statement to provide self-judgment
as I believe I have done what I have done in order to get HERE NOW, but I do
want to provide a brief framework of my historical patterns.
The past year 2013, was a gift and a blessing to me. I was able to do some gentle healing within a
loving and accepting environment and I am eternally grateful to everyone in my
life. Part of my healing has included
how to live “in the middle”. Life is not
either / or. It is And.
What I’m trying to say is I am building a life where I can
indulge my wanderer and yet provide her with a warm, safe, soft bed and hot
shower to come home to which I refer to
as Sanctuary. I don’t know how this will
unfold and I’m looking forward to the journey.
The employment provides me with a built in, familiar structure
that is comfortable, fun and consistent.
This is a turnaround from where I was before and that is the beauty of
choosing how to perceive each moment. I
no longer accept victimhood and in making that choice life becomes much
clearer.
I am learning to give up control. Yay!
Is it always easy? *shrug* I am Allowing myself to Trust in my Higher
Power. <3 whoa that plucked a heart
string
Over the years my understanding of life has come to this…we
are spiritual beings having a human existence and we are here to learn how to
bring the Divine into the mundane. I can have my cake and eat it too!
Let the Fun begin!
Blessings.
