Searching for Prince Charming One Penis at a Time.....

Er, um....awkward pause...

It's true.  I somehow fell into the idea that I would recognize my ONE TRUE LOVE by his penis.  Yah, looking for love in all the wrong places and all of those old, tired cliches. 

I am not saying this was a conscious thought.  I'm just saying that's how it played out for me.

Until now.

I am kind of a late bloomer in the emotional department.  I grew up very fast in a lot of ways, but my emotional growth stunted out at about the age of 14.  Lots of reasons contributed to this and those are stories for other days.  The fact still remains, that now, as I come to the end of my fourth decade, I am finally learning how to understand and take care of my emotions.

It's a wild ride.  And I kinda like it!

As I accept my emotions with honor, I also strengthen my self-respect.  Giving in to someone else's need in the hope that I will be returned the favor does not work.

Fulfilling myself comes first.  I can also give, without giving away my body.

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep…wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you….The one who turns to his friends and says, ‘that’s her.'”
~ Chuck Palahniuk