It has taken me a long time to see this. And it is absolutely paradoxical. I need certain expectations in some situations, but I need to let the outcomes of my dreams be open-ended.
Ahhhhh life.
Letting go.
And knowing when to have specifics and when to have none. Sometimes it drives me bat sh*t bananas.
Blerg.
And this be the dance...
I'm so much more of a direct, linear, go for it, charge, front line, type of person(ality). The subtle, give and take, flowing, graceful, dance of life has escaped my....notice. I suppose it is an aspect of maturity. It is like the "game" between men and women ( Transparency ). I much (MUCH) prefer a direct line of communication. I much prefer a direct line to my goals. Step A leads to Step B and so on until the end result.
I just don't appreciate subterfuge. Or subtleties. I suppose there is growth to be had in all this... *heavy sigh*
However, things change. And that is the only constant.
Adaptability is the best survival tool. Lucky for me, I can do that.
This particular aspect of "the dance" has been particularly "opportunistic" for me.
Fortunately, I came into this world with a helmet on! (for all the times I have hit my head against walls)
So, back to the drawing board....
I go within when I set an intention. ie. Finding employment. What do I want to do, what is my ultimate goal, where do I want to work (location), etc.
1. Temporary - 2-4 week employment - data entry work
2. Within a 4 block radius of my home
3. For the goal of generating $600 cash flow, establishing a routine and recent employment
history
4. Time frame to meet goal - 2 weeks
From this starting point, I begin my "physical action work". I look for leads, temp agencies, walk around looking for employers, update my resume, make sure my clothing is work ready, etc.
If I have no forward movement within my time frame - such as interviews - I go back and start redefining my goals. See if there is any area where I am being too rigid. Am I perhaps blocking an opportunity by not allowing another aspect in, such as working within a 1 mile radius of my home? Or adding typing to my data entry work?
This is a simple example to demonstrate my process.
By keeping my goals front and center, with the outcomes mutable, I am learning to dance.
